I did get kinda down on myself, thinking I was losing readers and followers because of the mistakes, but then I thought about it, and read y'alls comments, and I'm thrilled with the readers I have! I get that this blog style, characters, editing, whatever is not every one's cup of tea, and that's fine. There are plenty of other blogs. If you don't want to read mine anymore, see you on the others!
Ok, that went long. Lol. If you didn't skip straight to the post, sorry! This post just catches us up to real time, gives a little recap of everything, and throws us into the next story lines starting regular posting next week. Enjoy!***
"Hey boy I really wanna see
If you can go downtown with a girl like me
Hey boy, I really wanna be with you
'Cause you just my type
Ooh na na na na
I need a boy to take it over
Looking for a guy to put in work-a
Ooh, ooh
You're so amazing,
You took the time to figure me out
That's why you take me,
Way past the point of turning me on
You bout to break me,
I swear you got me losing my mind
Ooh na na, what's my name?
Ooh na na, what's my name?" What's My Name by Rihanna feat. Drake
"Trevor is coming to my
graduation right?" Amber panted as we hit the treadmill at the gym Tuesday.
I nodded, breathlessly. "Of course! He wouldn't miss it." I huffed.
"Are y'all finally gonna do
it?" She grinned at me.
I put my ear buds in to ignore her.
It had been almost 2 weeks since Trevor and I celebrated New Year's and decided
to be together. That day was the closest we got to consummating our new
relationship.
Trevor was on top of me on the
couch, his hand rubbing on my legs, pulling them around his waist as he kissed
me, over and over. I returned each kiss, rubbing my hands on his back, under his shirt.
When he pulled away, we stared into
each other's eyes. It was so intense; so many emotions were colliding within
me. All the love I had for him, trust that we could make this work, desire to
be more than friends, and disbelief that it was happening. Trevor and me.
Finally...
I reached up to grab his neck and
brought his lips back to mine. I kissed him desperately. I was ready to see how
good we were together. There was only one way to find out...
...But Bilal came home and we jumped
apart. After fixing our clothes and telling Bilal he didn't have to
leave, we sat with Bilal while he ate, teased us and told us he and Noorie were
taking a break.
"What does that even mean for a
guy?" I asked Trevor of Bilal's 'break' as I got ready to go home. I had
to work the next morning and I still had to pick up Justine from Rocky's.
"It means I'll be coming out to
see you next weekend so we can have some time alone." Trevor said as he
pulled me in for a hug.
"I'm off next weekend. I'll
come see you since I can't come out here when I'm on call." I suggested.
"Fine. We'll just stay in my
room." Trevor promised, kissing me on the lips softly.
The next weekend I spent hanging out
with him and Cat in the living room as they finished working on the website.
Cat was standoffish with me, but I was fine with that. Her roommate, Amelia,
fucked my boyfriend; we weren't going to besties anyway. I was sure she wasn't
happy that I went off on her boyfriend Kenji, but I stood by what I said, even
though Trevor disregarded me and my brother's opinion.
I talked to my brother about
Trevor's situation when I got back to Dallas. He completely agreed with me.
While there may not be any money on the website yet, Cam was against doing any
work without a contract. He got off the phone with me and called Trevor right
away. I got a text from Trevor 10 minutes later.
Trevor: Thanks
for sending your brother after me. I told you I got it
Me: Whateva
So that's how I spent the next
weekend hanging with Bilal and his friend Ian while they worked. I gave Trevor
dirty looks the whole time.
"Sorry about that." Trevor
apologized after Cat left late Saturday night.
"For what?" I said,
annoyed. "Cutting our time short or making me look like an idiot by
continuing to work with them without an agreement?"
He smiled. "You don't look like
an idiot..."
"Fine, a liar." I
countered.
"Why don't we just let it
go?"
"No. You didn't hear the way he
talked to me." I shook my head.
"Don't hold that against him.
He's a good guy. The book is being released early. He wants everything done
right. He was stressed."
"You were sick!"
"He didn't know that. He
thought I was avoiding his calls, with some random girl answering my phone-"
"Random girl?!?!"
"You know what I meant: random
to him. The only thing he knows about me personally was my time with
Amelia-"
"Are you trying to piss me
off?" I interrupted again.
"No! I meant, I used to go over to Cat's place and we would work together all the time. Now, I
don't want to be around Amelia so we can only work over here."
"Ok..." I said, wondering
what that had to do with anything.
"So look at it through Kenji's
eyes. It makes me look bad, but we cleared it up. It was just a
misunderstanding: Can you move past it, for me?" Trevor pleaded.
"Fine, but I can still be upset
that I didn't get as much time with you."
Trevor grinned at me. "The
night is not over. Let's go out."
"The only places open are
bars." I said, lying down on the bed, hopefully seductively. I gave him a
look over, hoping he would pick up on the clues to what I wanted to do with our
remaining time together.
He looked me over before getting up
and leaving the room. I sat up, frowning.
I didn't get it. Why wasn't he
trying to have sex with me? We were together. We didn't announce it on social
media or anything, but he was definitely my boyfriend. Well, we hadn't really
talked about that either, but it was assumed. Or I assumed it. I referred to
him as such. Before, he said he didn't want to have sex until we were together.
What was his excuse now?
Trevor snapped me out of my
thoughts. He got me up, told me to bundle up, and we left. I didn't have high
hopes for a romantic date when he instructed me to wear gloves and one of his
beanie caps. I watched him grab a bag and put it in the trunk. Maybe he wanted
privacy at a hotel?...
My hopes were dashed when we stopped
at a 24 hour cafe. I rolled my eyes. He would rather sit around drinking coffee
than have sex with me? Or did he just want to be properly caffeinated before
the act?
He actually just picked up 2 large
hot chocolates to go and my hopes were renewed, until he drove to Pfluger
Pedestrian Bridge. After we parked, I grabbed the drinks and Trevor grabbed the
bag he packed and we walked on the bridge.
It was a cool little bridge over the
Colorado River. It offered a great view of the water and Austin's skyline.
There were flowers, including blue bonnets, lining the bridge that you could
walk, ride bikes, or loiter on. There was also a great view of the graffiti on
the train bridge. We stopped so I could take a picture of the Mrs. Pac-Man
drawing with the phrase "Never Give Up". Afterwards, we made our way
to a bench overlooking the water.
"It's cold." I complained
as I sat.
Yeah, I was acting like a brat. The bridge was cool, but I was confused. We weren't consummating the relationship out here. When was he going to make a move?
Yeah, I was acting like a brat. The bridge was cool, but I was confused. We weren't consummating the relationship out here. When was he going to make a move?
"One second." Trevor said,
lighting a few candles he pulled out his bag, giving us extra light. He pulled
out a snuggie he got for Christmas and helped me put it on before handing me a
Battleship board.
I grinned at him. "Really?
Trying to go to war with me?"
"Bring it Lilypad." He
smiled.
The thrill of the competition distracted me from sex.
Well played Trevor.
I made us turn back to back as we played. After I sunk his second ship, I felt him fidgeting on the bench. I turned around to see him turning away from me.
Well played Trevor.
I made us turn back to back as we played. After I sunk his second ship, I felt him fidgeting on the bench. I turned around to see him turning away from me.
"You cheater!" I
exclaimed.
"Am not. If I was cheating, I
would have sunk yours. You're cheating!" Trevor exclaimed, looking over
his shoulder at me.
"Whatever." I laughed,
picking up my hot chocolate and taking a sip. "Neither one of us can turn
around or you're automatically disqualified!"
"Ok." Trevor agreed.
I was down to the last hit on what
should be his air craft carrier.
"G-4."
"Miss." Trevor said.
I looked at my board in confusion. That didn't make any sense.
"It has to be!"
"No."
I put my board down and turned
around. I sat up on my knees on the bench to look over his shoulder.
"Liar! I see it!"
"Liar! I see it!"
"My mistake... But you just
forfeited by turning around."
"After you cheated!"
"It was an honest
mistake." Trevor chuckled.
"Honest my ass. Victory is
mine!" I declared.
"Oh yeah?" Trevor laughed
turning around, putting his board down too.
"This snuggie is mine." He said, pulling the blanket and me against him. He wrapped his arms around me, grabbing my butt under the snuggie blanket. “What about your ass?" He asked, with a grin.
"This snuggie is mine." He said, pulling the blanket and me against him. He wrapped his arms around me, grabbing my butt under the snuggie blanket. “What about your ass?" He asked, with a grin.
"My... ass... won..." I
said between kissing him on the face.
"I don't mind losing like
this." Trevor said, before his lips found mine. I forgot about
the cold. The only thing I felt was sparks between us. It was electrifying.
We stayed there for about an hour,
just kissing and feeling each other up, but nothing more than that. It was
actually kinda perfect: testing the chemistry as friends and lovers. I was sure
we passed. What was bothering me was that we still hadn't gone further than making
out.
I made the mistake of voicing my
concerns with Amber. She was waiting for her test results for her nursing
certification and had free time on her hands since she wasn't going to school
during the week anymore. She called me up to join a gym with her so she would
have something to do when the kids were in school and she was off from work. I
quickly agreed. We had been working out together and I told her about Trevor and my
lack of love life.
"I'm serious." Amber
smiled. "You might just have to do it. Y'all have been friends so long, it
might just be awkward. Just jump him and see what happens."
"Urgh, Amber. That's not my
style. That just sounds.. pathetic."
"Having sex with your boyfriend
is not pathetic. It's either that or talk to him about it. Technically, you've only been dating 2 weeks. It's not weird y'all haven't had
sex. It's normal, but if it's bothering you, do something about it." Amber
argued.
I made a face. She was right. I
sounded like a sex starved animal. I needed to chill.
Work was picking back up when the
doctors started performing surgeries, so I was able to focus on that and not
lack of sex with Trevor. Forrest referred one of his co-workers to my clinic that had a collarbone fracture. He opted against surgery and just wanted physical rehab. It was also time for our annual reviews so I set up my appointment
time with Sandra and Ann. It would determine if I was getting a raise and I was
super excited about that.
Money wasn't tight, but I wasn't
able to save what I wanted paying the rent by myself. My dad always preached
having 3 months of expenses saved up for a rainy day. My rainy day fund was
hurting from the holidays, driving back and forth to Austin and extra living expenses. It sucked having to pay the entire rent, especially now that I had Justine and had to pay an additional pet deposit plus vet bills, supplies and food for her.
Rocky just gave me an "I told
you so look" when I complained about my situation. Rocky couldn't see me paying that much to rent. She told me she could work with me and get a mortgage payment for the same price. I told her I wanted a house with my future husband. Rocky advised me to get my priorities straight like she did: she got herself together, including a house, and her future husband came next.
I couldn't argue with her theory. Brandon and Rocky were solid, but I still didn't want a house yet. I didn't want that type of commitment to a house and the upkeep. I did entertain the idea of a roommate, more specifically, Jasmine. She moved out of her place with Reggie when they broke up. He felt like it was ok to stay out, without Jasmine, 'networking' for gigs, drinking, and acting inappropriately with other girls because he never crossed that line by cheating. Jasmine had enough and dumped him.
She was staying with her dad and his wife Stephanie and looking for a place. As much as I liked her as a person, I figured with Jake it would be too awkward. He still refused to acknowledge my existence. Besides, I didn't want to risk another friendship (and hair stylist!) by living with her. I was grateful Sammy and I survived living together. I didn't want to go through that again.
She was staying with her dad and his wife Stephanie and looking for a place. As much as I liked her as a person, I figured with Jake it would be too awkward. He still refused to acknowledge my existence. Besides, I didn't want to risk another friendship (and hair stylist!) by living with her. I was grateful Sammy and I survived living together. I didn't want to go through that again.
Speaking of, Sammy and Corey made it
official on New Year's Eve. I was so happy for them. They really had a great
time together and he settled Sammy down. I was excited to see what the New Year
brought for them.
I already knew 2015 would include my
brother's and Forrest's making their commitments to Jenna and Rachel official by getting married. I couldn't wait for both weddings. Forrest and Rachel set a date and location:
June 13th at The Orchard outside of Ft. Worth.
Cam and Jenna hadn't set a date, but
they didn't want a long engagement. Cam was already looking into jobs in
California. The wedding would be in Kansas City for Jenna's family. My dad
didn't complain. He would go anywhere just knowing his only son was raising his
family in California.
Jordan had calmed down on the ring
hunt herself. She and Derek had their first fight while living together. She
left to stay with a friend for a night, but they made up. It made her realized
that marriage was permanent and she needed to give them time to grow and not
pressure it. She said she would give them time to just live together, then go
from there. I admired her new attitude.
I was most proud of Amber. 2015 was
already starting off great for her. She was about to be a certified RN, had a
new schedule, and planned time for herself. I loved hanging out with her. She
didn't seem burnt out or exhausted, just happy. I was glad I got to see her
accomplish her goal of finishing school. She and Sammy started school together.
Sammy found a new goal, but Amber stuck to her dream. I was ecstatic to see
that dream become fulfilled.
I was surprised that Ethan helped as
far as planning Amber's graduation dinner. He actually asked me if we were
planning something, and I just told him I didn't want to step on Will's toes.
Well, I kinda did, but didn't for Amber's sake. Ethan acted like the go between
Will and me and we planned a nice surprise for Amber. I figured with the New
Year, Ethan would be throwing himself until his partner job and wouldn't look
up until 2016, but he didn't. He really was focusing on the present and
balancing his life more. It was great to see.
Ethan made me remind myself of the
snowflake. I was looking forward to what 2015 would bring me, but I was
learning to enjoy the present as well.
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I was standing in the mirror in my
room, looking over the blue dress that I had just put on. I was trying to find a
cute, but appropriate dress to wear to Amber's graduation and the dinner we
planned afterwards. I really was working on my budget. Instead of shopping for something new with Amber, I stuck with my own wardrobe. I heard a knock on the door and Justine rushed for it. I
smiled and followed her. By the time I reached the bottom of the stairs, the door
was opening.
"Why bother knocking if you’re
just gonna unlock the door?" I asked Trevor as I met him at the door.
"To keep you on your
toes." He smiled at me, petting Justine before pulling me in for a hug. I pressed my lips against
his. It was a brief kiss because his lips were freezing.
"What the hell?" I pulled
away. It wasn't that cold outside.
"Want some of my Slurpee?"
He asked, holding up his large drink.
"No! It's cold! I can't believe you stopped for a Slurpee."
"Gas too. It's cheaper out here. $1.69"
"No! It's cold! I can't believe you stopped for a Slurpee."
"Gas too. It's cheaper out here. $1.69"
"Did you get
your heat fixed in your car yet?" I asked.
"Not yet... what are you all
dressed up for?"
"If you get sick again, I'm not
helping you. I was picking out a dress for
Amber's graduation." I answered, walking up the stairs.
"If you go out in half a dress,
you're gonna be the one sick" Trevor followed me up the stairs.
"Half a dress?" I said,
going in my closest.
"Yeah, chunks are missing out
of that one: In the front and back." Trevor commented.
"Statements like that is why I'm the brain and you're Pinky." I said,
even though I was just thinking the dress looked a little out of season. I grabbed a
couple more options out my closet then headed in the bathroom to change.
I came back out with a red wrap dress. I stood in the mirror and examined myself. I watched Trevor's reaction
in the mirror. He looked me over with a little smile on his face.
"Better. At least that one has
a back."
"What about the front?" I
teased.
"What front?"
I rolled my eyes. "It has a
front, just a low neckline."
"How is it a neckline when it's
nowhere close to the neck?"
I stuck my tongue out at him and
went back to the bathroom. I tried on the last dress. It was my favorite by
far. It was a beige, long sleeved ruched dress that was modest enough for a
graduation but also good for a night out.
I came out, my mind already made up.
I wanted Trevor's reaction.
His eyes widened and he very
quickly said, "Next."
I frowned. "What? There isn't a
next. What's wrong with this one?"
"You look naked." He
pointed out.
I laughed at him. "I'm wearing
a dress. How do I look naked?"
"It blends in with your
skin."
"Ok..."
"From a distance, you look
naked."
"First of all, I do not look
like this naked! Second of all, maybe if you see me naked you would know that.
Third of all, this is what I'm wearing, so if you don't like it you can blow
me!"
"Take off the dress and I
will." Trevor grinned at me.
I knew he was teasing, but I took it
as a challenge. I took a deep breath.
Just do it. Make the first move. Seduce him. Think sexy. And
fierce. And strong. And fearless. Like Rihanna. Oh fuck, I'm no Rihanna, her
body is amazing... Focus Lily! You can do this!!!
I shimmied out of the dress. There was
nothing sexy about getting the dress off, but Trevor was so surprised by my actions, he didn't
notice.
"W-" He cleared his throat
and tried again. "What are you doing Lily?"
"Exactly what you said, taking
off the dress." I said, with all the confidence I could muster. I stood in
front of him, the dress pooled at my feet. The only thing I wore were black
bikini cut panties and a black bra. Trevor's eyes darted all over my body. His face was
flushed and it gave me a boost of confidence.
"Dress is off." I said,
matter of factly.
"Right..." Trevor said,
still staring at my body.
I stood there, waiting for him to
make a move. I waited until right when things got weird, then I kissed him hard
against his mouth. He kissed me back, just as hard.
Our mouths met and the passion
rising between us melted away all weirdness. His hands rested safely on my
waist, his thumbs rubbing over the trim of my panties. A giggle escaped my
lips as I thought about Trevor touching my panties.
"You're not supposed to be
laughing." Trevor said against my lips, smiling.
I blushed. "You're supposed to be blowing
me." I countered.
"Wanna lie down?" Trevor
asked.
I gulped, nervously and nodded. We laid down together. We started kissing again, and all my nerves, anxiety and
insecurities faded away...
..Until he breathed against my lips
the wrong fucking name.
17 comments:
Ahhh! No! I like the direction their relationship is going!
Yay, you're back! But NOOOOOOO, this is not how I thought things were gonna start :(
Can't believe you're back! If you need help editing old posts or current ones, I would love to help. You're an amazing writer and just need a few edits once in a while and I would be honored to help you with that!!!
Yay... Welcome back... But Ooops... I am hoping this is Trevor's wacky sense of humour and nerves getting the better of him and its a joke...
No! I just read it and no! He can't fuck up that soon.He claims to be in love with her and they're so perfect together.
Unless he said "Justine" because she was watching or something. That would be okay then.
:O
Welcome back!!!
OMG? Hopefully he's joking around they're so great together.
Welcome back!! I was having serious withdraws!! Trevor has to be messing with Lily. Seems like he has been trying to wait to have sex and this was another tactic to stall!! Thank you for your amazing blog!!
Yeah him saying Justine would make sense! I was like "wtf Trevor!" He's waited forever to be with her so let's hope he doesn't mess it up so fast.
I'm so glad you are back! I was so bored at work with nothing to do and I saw you posted, it made my day :-)
Luita
Oh WOW!!! Uhhb it doesnt even matter who's name but yeah ruined moment much......
Oh my gosh, I like them way too much together !!!! Please please don't have this end bad I really like Trevor and I can see why he's a little nervous about jumping in the sack with her it's a big step and he wants it to go right. I can't wait to next week
I'm with them^, I hope it was just Justine or something!!!! I am, like, wayyyy too into their relationship it is almost (definitely) pathetic. haha I think they are just working through their new-found relationship. They pushed their feelings aside so much over the years when they were just friends, that I feel like they are really trying to savor the fact that they are now actually together romantically. Especially from Trevor's side, I think that is why he hasn't been rushing into their physical relationship. It's all an adjustment!
I am so glad you're back! The week you were gone felt like an eternity!!! hahah!
Thank you! Please email me! I would love the help!
I agree! Way to into them together, hope it's something simple and not someone else
Omg please don't make us wait until next week!! We need to know if he is using humor to escape the awkwardness or if he truly just effed it up! Please please!!!
I think I have checked back for a new post about 10x a day since this post. I can't wait to see what happens, hopefully Lily doesn't kill him and he has a good explanation.
Yay your back!!!
NOOOO Tervor!!!!
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